Diary of a Chinese Lesbian

When we get our hearts broken in a severe way, it's hard to get out of the comfort zone and let yourself love again, but just remember, when the risks are great; the rewards are greater.










Circle of Self‐Sabotage
The depiction of the inner workings of one's contemplation, and emotional progression as illustrated through flow charts.

The root of fear resides in the risk one adheres when presented with the potential of awesomeness. In a bout of irrational and self‐preserving thought to prevent the potential loss and ultimate heartbreak, although questionable, one is captivated and petrified by the fear. This launches the emotional self to unleash defense mechanisms that render the 'heart' unavailable leaving involved parties frustrated which ultimately leads to the certainty of loss.

It is clear that fear and emotional captivity is a self‐contained process with few extraneous factors. However, as enslaving as this cyclic progression of crashing and burning is, it can be easily dismantled if the rightful party realizes the greater potential for awesomeness and the ultimate rewards that that scenario can provide.

One must let go of all inhibitions and open the doors to emotional gain to become in the moment and share all the emotions with the involved party.