Diary of a Chinese Lesbian

Journal entry - sometime in September.

au·ton·o·my
Pronunciation: \-mē\
Function: noun
Date: circa 1623 Merriam-Webster Dictionary

1 : the quality or state of being self-governing; especially : the right of self-government
2 : self-directing freedom and especially moral independence
3 : a self-governing state


I rejoice in the feeling of independence. The wind in your hair,laugh out loud, do what you want and when you want kind of freedom. I love that carefree existence where the only one I have to answer to is myself. I don't want to be responsible for someone else, nor do I want someone else to be responsible for me...

I seek pleasure in the admiration of something unique. I love that warm caress and the smell of another gentle soul taking care in embracing me with tenderness. Returning the same adoration gives me such soothing pleasure. I long for the day that I can call someone my own...

I have a hard time finding equilibrium.

I need the capacity to make individualistic and un-coerced decisions. Even the most perfect partnership is no exception. It's time to recollect myself again...